Those days when you don't know who you are or what...
Instead of working on my final project, I watched...
I got so much and so little done today. I feel as though I didn’t get much anything tangible done today, but the inner workings are what needed work. I cried it all out and I feel so much better. I have come back to my base. Hopefully tomorrow I’ll feel better and get actual work done. And maybe I’ll actually get up for class on time.
I'm feeling so raw today.
Physically and emotionally. Last night L and I stayed up until four in the morning laughing and crying and ranting and just letting all of our feelings out. Then she stayed the night and it was so wonderful waking up with someone next to me. I enjoy sharing my bed with people I feel close to. Me and L are kindred spirits. So so so much love for her. Today is a peaceful but sad day. My head...
I was walking through Albertsons and I smelled something really familiar and...– J.
I find that listening to music in spanish helps me...
Yes, I know I’m not focusing on it right now, although I should be. However, I feel like when I am actually writing and not tempted to post on tumblr how I like hispanic music, I can focus better and write with more conviction than without.
Q: How many people can fit comfortably and...
A: Thirteen has been the largest number at this point in time. A record made only earlier tonight, while everyone was enjoying their return from thanksgiving break. *So happy to be back!
I've slept at least 48 of the last 96 hours,...
But then I wake up at 7:30 this morning and I’m more awake than I’ve been in days. Welcome back to reality.
Home. (*dad's house)
When I come home I go into crisis mode. I think of my life and all of the choices I have made and where I am headed and what the future holds and how I will get there and all the things that have lead to where I am now. Then I get all caught up in my own head, and I forget that somehow, it all works out in the end. I exit today with a general sense of well-being, because I know that whatever...
I met a girl this morning, and I'm totally...
But she has a boyfriend and is totally straight in every sense of the term. But also pretty damn fantastic. We’ll be friends.
I'm getting a ride to my dad's house with a friend...
This is going to be awesome.
*that awkward moment when you jump in a giant...
I think I may have found my new favorite person to...
So much fun in the storm.
*that moment when you laugh so hard that tears are...
Thanks to TQ and IW. Sorry about your dick, TQ.
By 1866 the members of the Linguistic Society of Paris had had enough...– HJO, on the origins of language
So much can be communicated with just a look
Conversations in the form of eye contact can be the most revealing, but simultaneously the hardest to decipher. I hate feelings. I wish they would just go away. I also hate words. Spoken, written, sung. They aren’t efficient in communicating. Nothing can be said and taken in a straightforward manner. There is always some extraneous connotation that complicates things. Even those who...
I volunteered in the Outback today.
It was so much fun, but very cold.
*the daily what
First, my biggest accomplishment of the day was managing to eat three meals in the dining hall. Then I decided I for sure want to be an RA. And La might be moving into my room. We get along pretty well, so I really hope it will work. Also, J is being needy and I haven’t talked to KK in days. I miss home and I want it to snow. I need to clean tomorrow, inside outside room body mind...
I have officially decided that I really want to be...
I don’t know why I haven’t come to this conclusion sooner. The application period is open, but doesn’t close until mid January so I’ll have time to come up with something good. And my own RA recommended me. Fantastic!
Impromptu camping trip had to end prematurely...
In other news, I’ve kissed two different guys in two days. I’m really getting around. *read in a sarcastic manner
Tonight me and IW are going to camp out in the...
It will be epic. Although we aren’t technically allowed to camp in there. Or have fire in a pop can to roast marshmallows.
*that awkward moment when you tell a prospective...
And they won’t look you in the eye for the rest of the conversation.
The (slightly mean) joke I want to play on some...
I have these two friends, who I have begun to refer to as Harold and Kumar. Because, in every sense of the relationship, they are the same. They smoke in their dorm room almost every night, and have yet to get smart about it and do something to mask the smell that permeates every room because of them. So one night, I want to wait until they think they’ve made it without getting caught,...
The circumstances leading up to my first...
Let me start off by saying that these have been the most ridiculous past few days ever. First I get dumped, then my mom freaked out on me, then I invite my friend over.
The whole event went a little like this:
Bk: Sorry it didn't work out between you two
Me: I'm not worried about it. There are 7 billion people on this planet, I will find someone else. Anyway, it's college. Who would want to settle down?
Bk: So you're not really looking for anything?
Bk: Because I've always thought you were kind of cute
Me: Yeah? I kind of have a thing for you too.
Bk: (this was a visual question, slight raise of the eyebrow, moving closer, we kiss)
Me: That's great. (somewhat sarcastically) Wanna do it again?
Me: NOOOOO (laughs hysterically) I can't handle it.
Bk: Whateves. If you ever want to hang out and do it again sometime I'm game
Me: Cool bro.
However, I do believe that he won't be coming around soon after my little episode (nor do I want him to). I really wish I had been someone who really got around in high school, then I wouldn't have come to college with zero experience in any circumstance with the opposite sex.
Let me just say one thing.
After 17 years of waiting and glorifying the moment that would be my first kiss, it was really quite anticlimactic. But I’m sure it was a memorable one for my dear friend.
Slightly bruised ego day!
I’m almost looking forward to see how it pans out.
Sometimes I get ahead of myself.
I think I’ll give it some time and this is what will happen. But then I realize I was wrong all along and I should play a better hand at times. J met L and fell for her right away. Which is cool, I’m really happy for them. Just slightly bitter as well. I’m going to be the one at their wedding thinking ‘he could have been mine.’ Whatever though, two of the coolest...
I skipped class this morning.
Rather, I was running really late, so when I actually got to the building my class was in, I just kept waking. It was a glorious feeling. Such a beautiful morning. I sat in the square and read for an hour, then wandered aimlessly around campus. So peaceful.
Eggies in a Basket!
Yesterday me and J hiked five miles to Fred Meyer and back, and that was quite the adventure. Then we sat in my room and made lanterns for a while, then we went on chat roulette, and well, you know how that goes. It was a simple night. And today I made eggies in a basket, which were delicious and I should cook more often. Also I got to talk to KK which was nice, it has been a while. Just...
The Sex Ed You Wish You Had in High School
*So we went to this event called the sex ed you wish you had in high school, and when we got back my friends that didn't go wanted to know what we learned. Specifically the guy I am currently in a pseudo relationship with.
J: So what did you learn?
Me: Anatomy and how to give good blow-jobs
J: *blank stare*
Me: And how to have safe sex and how to eat out pussy, in the presenter's words
J: *blank stare*
Me: (at this point I begin to ramble on to make up for my awkwardness.. It didn't work)
*that moment in the night when you finally realize...
But as soon as you’ve made your mind up about it you fall asleep anyway
My roommate moved out today.
Also, I’m super excited to have the room to myself, even if it might be only for a little bit.
My roommate is moving out today.
When did I find this out? About ten minutes ago as I walk into my room that was nearly emptied of all her things. Not gonna lie, I’m kind of excited right now. *I just hope that I don’t get a new roommate any time soon. I rather like having a couch.
Let's go watch the moonrise and be happy.
That is what I want. Also, we both like each other, why not let it happen?
Going to Fred Meyer.. The social event of the...
I just ACED my midterm!
Yay for skyping study parties
I went to class for the day, then I went back to bed. I have no intention of getting out.